i'm having the badest day of my lyfe ryte now
since yesterday
lyk wtf!?
i dun wanna bad mouth who dat person is
not good and sinful some more
hehe
but seriously it kinda sucks when u totally undrstnd dat person but dat person dun undrstnds u and dun realli get wat u wan
so, wats the point ryte
haizz..
i seriously dunnoe wat to do ryte now
it realli realli sucks
i havent been dis emotional before
evrythink dat happens to me i will cry, angry and etc
now i noe dat i am realli realli changing my own self
lyk i'm not being myself lately
i used to be the hyper, crazy, annoying, happy-go-lucky, lyks to laugh and make others happy
and now....
i'm lyk getting too emotional at things
it seems dat it is true dat if u're wif someone, dat person can realli change u to another person
i dunnoe wat to do ryte now
i realli nid someone to realli knows me and undrstnd me
but its so difficult to find one dat truly knows u inside out
the decision is all up to me to choose
but i'm afraid if i choose the wrong path
who shld i talk to??
who shld i depend on??
who shld i trust??
who who who???
i noe dat evrybdy is not perfect
but dat person realli dun undrstnds me
it realli saddens me inside
i've been crying all night long just bcz i could'nt bear to lose dat someone
it makes me realli hard to make dat person happy
evrything i do is all wrong
is it just bcz of just small things and u wan to make it big?
why would u alwaes ask for "_____" when we quarrel??
is dat realli wat u wan?
if dat realli makes u happy larh
if u wan freedom, i can give it to u
but cant u just undrstnd me for at least once?
for u evrything u say is correct and evrything i say is all wrong
its as if i'm lyk the stupid one
when is the tym dat i can voice out evrything to u??
when will be the tym dat i say is all correct??
when is the tym dat u can realli listen to me??
when when when???
but if i have ever do wrong to u i just want to say i'm realli realli sorry
okay?
are u satisfied now?
the only thing dat i wan to ask is dat shld i forgive u for wat u have done to me all dis tym??
i noe i'm the person who forgives and forgets
without anybdy asking for forgiveness, i will alrdy forgive dem
but i'm not the kind of person u can play around wif
u're sorry dat wat u have done to me is all wrong
but later the next day u will do it again and again
so, wats the point of saying sorry to me if u realli dun mean it ryte??
for me its very easy
there's isnt a nid for saying sorry to me
as long as u noe dat u've done wrong to me and u're feeling guilty and such
its good
at least u've realise dat u are in the wrong
and promise dat u wont do it again
dats all
easy ryte?
but i noe for u its difficult ryte??
bcz u simply just dun undrstnd me
correct or not?
seriously i've nothing to say anymore ryte now
i just wan u to love me as i am and not for i am not
i just wan u to undrstnd me inside out
and
i just wan u to accept me for who i am
okay??
chey chey aqillah sedeh ke per citer
LOL?!
hehe
just writing bout wat i feel
for those ppl who noe who i'm writing about, just kip it to urself kae
if i noe dat u're telling ppl who i'm writing about
u better WATCH OUT ehk!!!!
I MEAN IT!!!